Do you ever get that out of place feeling? It happened a lot to me when I was in middle school. Then less so in high school and college. One place I always felt that way was the high school cafeteria of the school I was a Young Life leader at. Every time I walked into the school I thought to myself, “Jake, you high school was bad enough the first time around, what are you doing putting yourself back here?”
Its funny, because recently I have been feeling like a belong most places I have found myself. Its as if the Lord has been carving out a place in the world for me. The house I live in, the city I call home, the people I keep meeting, it has been really amazing to see it all fall together with no planning on my part. God has been faithful that way.
Today that all seemed to disappear. I found myself in new, disorienting situations and around people that were not easy for me to relate to. What was the first thing that rolled through my mind? “Jake, why are you here? Maybe this is a mistake?”
How little is my faith? How quick am I to forget God’s provision? How fast do I start to worry and get frustrated by my circumstances?
As I drove home tonight, and then sitting in my room replaying the events of the last several months, a laughed out loud. Today was a different day, and I really don’t know what my life is going to look like moving forward, but God has been faithful in bringing me here, and I have seen healing in my life and growth. Why with one bad day am I ready to doubt all that? Its funny how quickly I get distracted by the waves and start to sink like Peter. “Lord save me!”